Li Dai did not understand what Qianchan meant by saying the Buddha Son had a Tribulation. However, to actually watch Shi Yuan die—no, to watch someone who might be connected to Shi Yuan die—was something she simply could not do. Yet, asking her to help a monk comprehend emotional love was equally out of the question. Quite apart from her mother’s warnings in the illusion about never touching matters of the heart, she was naturally dull-witted in this area. Even with her mother’s warnings, by rights she should have obeyed to spare herself any misery, but from childhood onward, her very bones were not those of an obedient person. She had never intentionally sought out romance simply because she had not yet met someone she liked. If she did meet someone, and that person happened to fancy her back, there was no reason why the two of them could not have a roaring, passionate romance. She would not reject or shun romance just because of her mother’s words; that sort of cowardly behavior, fleeing out of fear of a bad outcome, was not her style.
Although she thought this way, she also had her own set of principles. As for those who took a fancy to her but whom she did not like, she kept contact to an absolute minimum to avoid attracting unwanted romantic entanglements that would break other people's hearts and make her feel uncomfortable.
Because of this principle, when she heard Qianchan ask her to help the Buddha Son comprehend emotion, Li Dai’s initial reaction was one of reluct…
Chapter 621