"I have walked this path for five full years, and I have changed the destinies of so many people, pushing myself to the point I am today without holding anything back, all so that I would not leave any regrets in my life," Lu Mingfei said. "I want to keep this girl alive, to let her live according to her own will. But if I fail to change her ending, then this will become the greatest regret of my life."
"I don't want to carry those regrets anymore, because they are as heavy as mountains, crushing me down bit by bit. They make you realize just how grand destiny is and how minuscule you are. Standing before destiny, no matter how hard you grit your teeth, stamp your feet, and give it everything you've got, you cannot shake it by even a fraction."
"I hate this feeling of helplessness, I despise it to the core. If this sense of powerlessness were something like a glass bottle, I would smash it to pieces!" Lu Mingfei said in a low voice. "If I lack the power and cannot change the ending of the story, then every tragedy that occurs places another mountain of regret upon my shoulders. The mountains pile higher and higher, and unable to bear the weight, I can only trudge forward weighed down by deep self-blame and remorse, my shoulders hunched, my steps faltering. That is why I became more and more pathetic, more and more pathetic, more and more pathetic..."
Chapter 394