Back then, she had no one to rely on behind her, had just lost her sight, and could adapt to nothing. She couldn't even get her bearings, and even if she wanted to use poison, she was afraid of accidentally poisoning herself.
What's more, back then, she couldn't even get her hands on the slightest bit of medicinal ingredients to make some medicine for self-defense.
She had been bewildered, terrified, and filled with hatred, yet she had to keep persuading herself that she was naturally a harbinger of doom, and that it was only natural for everyone to hate her.
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