The Imperial Court looked at Si Ren without saying a word, though an inexplicable emotion seemed to ripple in his eyes.
"I am not a competent father, and I don't know how to be one. To be honest, even though I am the head of the Imperial Court, when it comes to family affection, I really lack the courage to face it. I don't want to make excuses for what happened back then, but abandoning you at the orphanage was truly the only option we had left. Your grandfather was executed during those upheavals, and your mother fell chronically ill because of those events and passed away three years after our names were cleared. You probably blame me for not coming to pick you up the moment I got out. The situation back then was extremely unstable, and everyone from top to bottom was in constant peril. Those dangers came from both within and without. One misstep would have meant the total destruction of our family. Besides, I had to avenge your grandfather's death and your mother's departure. To achieve revenge, I had to keep climbing upward without a moment of slack. A single pause meant plunging into an endless abyss."
The Imperial Court looked at Si Ren, smiled bitterly, and continued speaking.
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