If I hadn't just followed the crowd and gone there back then, I probably wouldn't have run into you, would I? Perhaps you would have died in that great war of light and dark, and I wouldn't be here grieving over you. Fortunately, giants cannot shed tears; otherwise, seeing how I look right now must be quite humiliating!
In this lifetime, you are the only one I have ever proactively pursued, Carmeara. Xiaolu was simply snatched away. When you rejected me at first, it didn't seem like much, but as time went on, I couldn't help dwelling on it. In truth, Carmeara, you were just a substitute I found after you turned me down.
Slowly, I grew genuinely fond of you, and that is how she came to be who she is today. When you appeared before me once more, I thought it was my greatest stroke of fortune. Even if it meant keeping you by my side by force, I was determined to do it. Before I came here, I truly believed things had gone back to the way they used to be.
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