"I am a failure. I barely notice whether the sun is shining or not, because I simply don't have the time.
"My parents were unable to provide me with any support, and my education is unremarkable. I was all alone in the city, searching for a future. I applied for many jobs, but I was never hired. Perhaps no one likes someone who is awkward with words, dislikes socializing, and hasn't demonstrated any notable abilities.
"There were three full days where I only ate two pieces of bread. Hunger kept me from sleeping at night. Fortunately, I had paid a month's rent in advance, so I could continue to live in that dark basement, avoiding the need to face the exceptionally cold winter wind outside.
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